Yesterday morning:
-carrots w/ beloved omega-3 peanut butter
-coffee

Lunch:
-spinach salad w/ chicken, tomato, purple pepper, italian dressing.
-fish oil
-green tea

Dinner:
-orange juice (just bought a gallon of orange juice. orange juice is really good. i had forgotten. i'm sorry, orange juice, i'll never forget you again.)
-tuna fish sandwich w/ that ezekiel bread and mustardayonaisse
-3 (omega-3) egg omellete with pesto, broccoli, grated romano, and salsa. i cooked this in extra virgin olive oil. i bought what i think is a half gallon of olive oil, so anytime i am cooking something you can pretty much assume that it is dripping with olive oil because extra virgin olive oil is delicious and goes bad in like 3 months. oddly, olives themselves are unpleasant to me. it is funny how the world works.
-sharp cheddar cheese, apple, almonds, and water crackers
-2 glasses of wine. i had a good time partying with myself last night. i am apparently one of the last people in the country to read this book, and it was fantastic like everyone says. it is one of my new favorites. it doesn't talk about food very much, but from pages 50-51, young Toby is promised a hamburger by a guy who likes his mother:

"Come on, Bub," said the man I'd been talking to. "I'll rustle you up something to eat."
I followed him to the kitchen and sat at a counter while Judd pulled things out of the refrigerator. He slapped together a baloney sandwich and set it in front of me. He seemed to have forgotten about the hamburger. I would have said something, but I had a pretty good idea that even if I did there wasn't going to be any hamburger.
When we came back to the living room, my mother was looking out the window through the binoculars. The sunburned man stood beside her, his head bent close to hers, one hand resting on her shoulder as he gestured with his beer bottle at some point of interest. He turned as we came in and grinned at us. "There's our guy," he said. How's it going? You get some lunch? Judd, did you get this man some lunch?"
"Yes sir," he said."

well howdy welcome back! I have been extremely busy recently as the series of tasks that I perform and am in turn paid for moved up a level in intensity to the 12-15 hour a day range and what meals I have had have been catered or restaurant-made. They have been pretty good quality meals, but I have either been just sitting around doing work or frantically running from building to building in a state of panic that rendered me nearly blind and always exhausted, so I didn't really get to enjoy them the way I would have liked. also i have gotten little to no exercise aside from the short anxiety-filled run/walks between work buildings.

Some of the things I have eaten over the past week and a half:
-english muffins w/ melted peanut butter (no oatmeal!)
-lots of salmon
-a veggie burrito
-steak flank w/ potatos
-italian chicken salad with green beans
-some kind of other italian chicken thing with mushrooms

I also went to a bunch of restaurants because work paid for it and I had no time to cook:
-tuna steak w/ green beans and asparagus. not terrible, although sweet jesus they put an insane amount of pepper on the tuna steak. i mean, why? tuna steak is pretty tasty on its own. it really doesn't need to be so coated in pepper rub that the top of the fish i completely black and all you can taste is pepper. why do people who supposedly like preparing food do this? it's like hey why don't we just take this beautiful new york sirloin and put ketchup all over it so that all you can taste is a sweet vinegary tomato flavor. come on. despite the best efforts of the kitchen, the food was actually pretty good. the vegetables were cooked with real butter, which was a delicious surprise. i hadn't tasted real butter in so long that i actually had to think about what i was tasting. tavern in the square. kind of a corporo-trendy atmosphere with lots of big screen tv's in case you hadn't looked at a screen for a few moments.
-chicken in like an onion sauce with garlic naan. fantastic. some of the best indian food i've ever had, to be honest. had a fascinating cocktail with lychee (kind of like a fleshy egg that tastes citrusy) while my girlfriend's cocktail had tamarind and was oddly spicy and sweet. the naan wasn't amazing, but it's naan so eh. tamarind bay. atmosphere was fancy. lots of well-dressed, good-looking people.
-grilled swordfish with melted mozzarella, zuccini, mint, and garlicy mashed potatos. pretty awesome. i don't remember much except that this was really really good. my girlfriend got flattened lemon chicken with za'atar and Turkish cheese pancake. hers was pretty good too, although the pancake tasted like it was goat cheesey and i am not the world's biggest fan of goat cheese. she likes it, however, so we were both very happy. oleana. atmosphere is fancy but warm. lots of people who wear clothing that looks like it could be considered artisanal "textile art" or who wear expensive-looking glasses.

Today Morning:
-oatmeal w/ blueberries
-coffee

Lunch:
-chicken fajita wrap w/ chicken, onion, salsa, cabbage(?), red pepper. kind of an unexpected lunch purchased at kind of a high end lunch place in an office building that was not where i work. pretty good but wet so that while eating it with one hand like a burrito and peeling back the foil to expose its gifts of chicken and onion, the lunch product after a time dribbled a thin chicken/salsa liquid onto my shoes. i need to get new shoes but i don't like being pressured by my fajita to do so.

Yesterday Dinner:
-ground turkey w/ curry and yellow pepper
-omega-3 peanut butter and purple pepper, carrots
-spinach salad w/ italian dressing and tomato

Today Morning:
-omega-3 eggs huevos rancheros-style w/ tortilla, crumbled cheese, salsa. no sausage, however.
-coffee

Lunch:
-chicken breast sandwich w/ chicken breast, lettuce, tomato. about as basic a sandwich as you can have and still be considered a sandwich. just a roll with some meat in it. eating this sandwich made me feel a little sad. i thought of this.

Yesterday Dinner:
-chicken breast w/ pesto
-turkey quinoa chili w/ kidney beans
I was going to steam some kale too, but I got tired and fell asleep.

Today Morning:
-oatmeal w/ blueberries
-coffee
-protein bar
the maintenance guys came over this morning to fix that leak in the ceiling. nothing is more disracting than water (god i hope it's clean water) and pieces of ceiling falling on you when you are trying to watch david ortiz continue to be the greatest hero in american history. i love david ortiz. i love him so much.

Today Lunch:
-a chicken taco salad. served in a largish bowl made of taco, it contained salsa, lettuce, chicken, cheese, and sour cream that looked like they had been hurled into the taco bowl at high velocity from a great height. not a tremendous amount of food all told, but not bad. i was given several samples of free chicken while standing waiting for my food. i expected the chicken to be more tendony than it turned out to be. remarkably tendon-free chicken for a cheap mexican place. mexican place in the corner mall in downtown crossing.
-green tea
-fish oil

Yesterday Lunch:
-green tea
-fish oil
-spinach salad w/ feta and peanut sauce that i accidently poured on. i just wasn't thinking and poured peanut sauce on a salad that contained feta. was this a big deal? no. i ate and it tasted weird and i didn't think about it again until this very moment.
-tomato
-walnuts

Supper:
-1 Long Island Iced Tea. fancy chinese restaurant version with sake in addition to the other 5 kinds of liqours. as far as most liqour for your buck goes, it's hard to beat the long island iced tea. i mean, martinis and manhattens are pretty much straight liqour, but i'm talking like mixed drinks. real martinis (with gin or vodka and vermouth only, not like the oversweetened overpriced cocktails on fancy bar menus) and manhattens say something a little different; it seems grown-up or something to order a drink that tastes bad. sometimes you want a drink that kind of tastes bad. it is strange. rarely do i feel like eating bad tasting food out of the garbage, but i sometimes do like drinks that make me cringe a little when i taste them. i am not knocking martinis or manhattens or even the overpriced oversweet fake martinis with cutesy names like the chocotini or the loganberry frostini. all of these drinks have their place. in the world of mixed drinks, though, the long island iced tea is king. there's like 5 different things in there. they were my favorite drink to make as a bartender because you could pour like 4 or 5 bottles at the same time and it looked like you were an exacting chemist, a student of booze. (for my least favorite drink to make, please scroll down.) it was my roommate's birthday. peking tom's.
-1 Bud Light. bluegrass at the cantab. it was a busy night.
-salmon fillet with olive oil, greent tomatos and fennel
-steamed kale with lemon juice and soy sauce
did you notice that i referred to the evening meal as supper rather than dinner?

Today Morning:
-banana
-coffee
-2 hardboiled eggs

Lunch:
-the always dependably good chicken kabob salad. there was a long line today, but as usual the falafel king himself recognized me and called me his beautiful friend like he does to everyone else and it warmed my heart. seriously that dude should run for office. i would vote for him. well, maybe - if it was for like alderman or selectman or something that i don't think has a lot of actual power. i bet he would handle business nicely and extremely efficiently. he'd be pretty much the perfect bureaucrat.
-green tea
-fish oil
-carrots

*old-fashioneds. old-fashioneds are such a pain to make. a lot of times you'd have to go back to the kitchen to get sugar and then you had to find the right kind of spoon to mottle everything and it just took forever. annoy your local bartender by asking them to make you an old-fashioned on an extremely busy night at the bar. for bonus points, send the drink back because it doesn't taste right and be a semi-regular whom the bartender remembers as an inadequate tipper and sloppy drunk.

Yesterday Lunch:
-chicken salad sandwich. i am generally not a big fan of chicken salad, but this sandwich was the "special" sandwich of the day at the sandwich place i went to, so i got it. it was not terrible, but not entirely memorable. primo's.
-green tea

Dinner:
-went to costco yesterday and wound up buying $225 worth of huge things. it was not my intention to spend so much money at the gigantic store. i probably should have held off on a few of the huge things, but i now have around 15 lbs of various frozen fishes. i didn't really need the gallon of shampoo, but it's not like i'm not going to use it, and in the end i guess it saves packaging so that is a good thing. anyway, i wound up sort of skipping dinner because i went shopping in a warehouse that is maybe the size of a city block. awesome girlfriend fed me almonds and propel fancy water in the car as i drove on the way home.
-when i got home i had yogurt and oat bran and blueberries
-and a chicken breast with curry sauce. i should have had more vegetables, because i did not really have any

Today Morning:
-oatmeal w/ blueberries. i have been eating the rolled oats, rather than the steel-cut ones. i found i could get the rolled oats for cheaper and i don't think there is a huge difference. these oats seem to cook a little faster than steel-cut. they also seem even more filling, if such a thing is possible. i kind of prefer steel-cut, but these aren't bad.
-coffee
-a tomato

my dreams were free of death-imagery last night, which could be a good sign.

Weekend Roundup:
-omega-3 eggs w/ award-winning tomato, parmesean, fresh cilantro, salsa
-coffee
-1/2 panini sandwich, i think pesto, chicken, mozzarella, lettuce
-korean bbq! thickly sliced marinated ribless beef cooked on the table i was sitting at. eaten w/ kim chee, sweet pickled radish, sesame green beans, peanuty bbq sauce, edamame. fabulous girlfriend had marinated pork, which was better than my beef. i am not a huge fan of fatty beef, which is what mine turned out to be. a pretty amazing experience overall, however. i like eating directly off the grill that is built into my table. my table was on fire! koreana.
-1 Kirin Lite
-1 cup "yucca juice." consumed at a party. as far as i know, had no actual yucca in it. thank god, because that would have been gross.
-oatmeal w/ NOTHING IN IT
-grilled chicken wrap w/ lettuce, tomato, american cheese. meh. dilaria's cafe.
-buffalo chicken ceasar salad. surprisingly good. the on the surface weird combination actually worked out ok, although sweet jesus the salad was drowning in ceasar dressing. maybe some people actually like not being able to see pieces of their salad because the are subvmerged under a 1/2 inch of dressing, but that is too much dressing for me. otherwise, a good salad to celebrate winning a softball game with. halfway cafe.
-20 oz Bud Light
-fish oil
-chicken breast w/ pesto
-carrots w/ omega-3 peanut butter

incredibly fast weekend. much of it spent thinking about a couch. maybe this is because of fall, but had a surprising number of dreams about death this past week. in one particularly vivid dream i was dead and was leading 3 anthropomorphic m&ms (not like the computer animated ones in the commercials. these were different anthropomorphized m&ms.) to heaven (which turned out to be very much like a 1940's film noir bar) but got sidetracked in a bathroom downstairs. heaven was upstairs (duh) and to get up we had to climb what looked to be some ugly fire escape-type stairs. the m&ms saw mickey rourke downstairs in the bathroom and while i wanted to get up to heaven already and don't really care much about mickey rourke anyway the m&ms wanted to chat and get his autograph. the m&ms were not very smart and i don't know how they got into heaven in the first place or why i had to take them. this was a stupid dream and i apologize for wasting the last 30 seconds of your life. there were other dreams in which i was dying, already dead or someone else was dying or already dead, but that was the only one i remember even somewhat clearly.

i am still kind of upset that i lost that whole big thing i wrote a couple days ago. it's been a tough week and i'm glad it's over.

Yesterday:
-protein bar
-coffee
-mixed greens salad w/ chicken, beets, tomato, cucumber, cheese, brocolli and tuna
-chicken breast w/ pesto
-yogurt w/ oat bran and blueberries
-collard greens w/ bleu cheese dressing

Today Morning:
-orange
-coffee

Lunch:
-steak salad w/ greens, onion, mushroom, brocolli
-green tea
-fish oil (am back on the fish oil)

i had a huge thing here about what i ate this weekend and this week, but firefox crashed and the thing is gone. gone forever. it's hard enough trying to remember what i ate. so now, a remembrance of meals past.

Week Roundup:
-the omega-3 eggs with which i am still infatuated, eaten a variety of ways with a variety of other foods: broccoli, green, yellow, purple, white, and orange peppers, salsa, grated cheddar
-oatmeal w/ blueberries, apples, cinnamon, oranges, pears
-a great picnic meal of carrots, fancy crackers, creamy herbed feta and sharp vermont cheddar. went to the harbor islands over the weekend. they were beautiful. there is more but honestly i can't talk about it anymore. go to the harbor islands sometime and we'll share stories. i'll tell you about the kite festival and the people with the crazy sunburns then.
-steamed kale w/ lemon juice, soy sauce and nutritional yeast
-tomatos
-multicolored peppers and carrots w/ pesto
-chicken breasts w/ peanut sauce
-tuna salads w/ spinach, tomato, cucumber
-surprisingly little fish oil
-salmon burger w/ apple sauce and cilantro (weird)
-wedding food! salmon w/ honey mustard, homemade potato chips (what is up with catering people making their own papas fritas stuff? maybe the price of potato cutters and friolaters came way down), root vegetables, 2 Amstel lights (had to drive)
-hall of fame lunches spinach salad and chicken kebab falafel salad
-lots of coffee
-walnuts, almonds, pecans, brazil nuts, hazelnuts, macadamia nuts, peanuts
this is not everything but it has been a long time, people. i am all hell of a busy man right now and i have a powerful hunger. i'll eat you and everyone you love. watchout!

Today Morning:
-oatmeal w/ the berries
-coffee

Yesterday Dinner:
-chinese food leftovers
-a mozzarella, tomato, basil leaf platter that the girlfriend made for me with the farm share goodness. that girl is awesome. wow. she also brought over
-3 Sam Adams lights, and helped me move some more. i mean, she is out of her mind nice to me.
Today Morning:
-oatmeal w/ blueberries
-coffee
-orange

Today Lunch:
-chicken and spinach salad w/ egg, bacon, tomato, cucumber, pepper and honey dijon
-green tea
-fish oil